sueneedssleep
Senior Member
Joined: 05 Sep 2008
Posts: 229
I feel for all your pain and believe me when i say not a day goes by i dont think about my lost ones. I have had eight miscarrages and a still born boy. And the doctors could never find a reason. So i decided last year i was going to be sterilized. Well the blood test came back before the op to tell me i was pregnant. My heart sank, bcause i thoughthow much pain cani take, and i just knew i would miscarry again or loose the baby. I sank in to despair and got very sad. But still the baby grew and grew and eventualy i gave birth to a healthy baby girl and i did not believe it till she was in my arms. So although now i have her hear i feel so much love for her. Im just worried that something will happen and my world will be shattered all over agian. Am i a bad person for thinking this