becsjd
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Joined: 28 Jan 2009
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I`ve had a miscarrige this week. It started on monday... thinking back, I`d stopped felling sick all the time a day or so before.
I had a period last at christmas, i did a teat about the 20 jan wasn`t sure, did some more got possitve ones, thought no more of it for a bit was just still not sure I guess after being on depo for so long and cycle only just coming back. Had some dark spotting on 4th feb just thought in my head.. oh well another period wasn`t preggers... tues 10th feb I start bleeding again, nothing like a normal period for me, this is very heavy, infact it gets worse, by thursday the cramps are really bad altough I`m still trying to get on with work and stuff its frightening me, and wearing me out, friday I only managed2 hrs at work before I had to come home and visit the doctor, he and the nurse where very good they think I conceived just after christmas and was about 7 weeks, but they where sorrry as this was now a complete miscarrige. I had to do a test again, and have an enternal.... not very plesant...!!!
I feel a bit numb... I guess the whole thing didn`t feel right from the start, I hadn`t even really admitted I was pregnant to myself, I guess I now feel like I`ve missed out on enjoying even a few weeks of a high of getting pregnant. Silly I know as I guess my body knew from the start this was meant to end this way.But the bleeding everywhere, the big clots the cramping pains... struggling with the feelings about them, let alone going back to work and trying to explain whats happened when I still feel numb about the whole thing myself..
My hubbie... bless him.... really is just putting the whole thing down to a bad period..!!!
The doctor put me on bed rest as I was so pale from blood loss and pain, and hubbie wants to take me and son out to pizza hut as its valentines I`m changing pads every 30 mins or so... sit down meal in company....I don`t think so.....
How do I get through to him whats happened.???