ClairaBell
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Joined: 02 Sep 2008
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Gem, you are not losing the plot sweety.
I can't begin to understand what you are feeling, but I am guessing that most ladies feel like this. And you are allowed to be emotional. There will always be part of you that wanders what your baby would have been like, were they a girl or boy etc. And you will carry your baby around with you in your heart forever.
I wish i could offer more advice. xxxx
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After 3 and half years of ttc, tests being clear and unable to adopt, we have decided to become a patchwork family. Me, my hubby and stepchildren.
Its so sad to know I will never hear the word 'Mommy'.x