Posted: Sun Jul 20, 2008 7:05 pm
i guess i did feel resentfull at times that i thought this baby would bring me so much happiness and all i felt was like i was swimming through mud underwater -i knew there was a sun in the sky but i couldnt get above the mud
i wanted to run away leave my baby with hubby and just go back to my old life in the town i had lived in whilst doing my training, coz i thought she deserved better than a mother like me
my mother in law asked what was on my insurance line and i said PND -she said 'rubbish ,you dont have PND .i knew woman who had it and she couldnt even pick her baby up'
well i was the opposite i couldnt let her out my sight coz i had to protect her from ???i dont know everything-i was awake nearly 24hours of day and night coz convinced if i fell asleeo she would die
after what MIL said though i thought no one would beleive me so kept it to myself
did however get great support from healthcare folk
good luck and im sending you good karma