puss2
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i know many askbaby members are aware, but i thought i might write it here as its my first valentines day without him he died suddenly at work 2 weeks before christmas of heart failure its been abit horrible today... all i see is people kissing, big red heart shaped balloons and flowers, etc. i know its not their fault but it really cuts deep. i wake up every day with a feeling of desperation cos i want to cuddle with him or tell him i love him and i cant and the pain is searing in my chest. we held his funeral 4 days ago and i had a poem read out for him that i wrote on behalf of our kids:
We have the bestest daddy, that ever could exist,
His love`s felt here forever, his presence always missed,
Our daddy went to sleep, one misty cold December,
But happy memories could never die, would always be remembered.
Funny jokes, laughter, games, smiles, kisses, cuddles,
Rough and tumble, silly names and jumping in the puddles,
Our daddy was so very funny, blessed every heart he touched,
Family, friends, children and mummy loved him so very much.
Daddy went to sleep so suddenly, we don’t know why he had to go,
But don’t be angry, please don’t cry, ‘cause this is all we need to know,
When daddy grew his angel wings, there was no suffering, no painful harm,
He passed away so peacefully, into his mother`s arms.
He`s now in a blissful, peaceful place, a long, long way away,
Where there are no worries, work or pain, and the sun shines every day.
So remember our daddy`s always watching, whatever life may bring,
wherever you go, whatever you do, and whenever the birds will sing. _________________

fifitrixibelle
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puss i am sooo sooo sorry, im in tears reading ur post, u r such a strong brave lady, it must be really hard for u not just today but everyday. my thoughts are with ye all, xxxxxx
louise55
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U are such a brave lady!!! I admire you very much. I really couldnt manage going through a pregnancy the way you are, and that poem was lovely brought a tear to my eye. Good luck hun. xx _________________


pips1
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Joined: 16 May 2008
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Puss, I havent been on for a while, so I didnt know this, but just wanted to say how incredibly sorry I am for your loss. I cant imagine what you are going though, or how these past few months have been, but my heart aches for you and your children. Your in my thoughts today - and in the months ahead. So so very sorry Puss - Pipsxxx _________________

noone
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Puss
I just wanted to say how lovely your poem was and how wonderful you are for carrying on with the strength you do. I know you will never let him be forgotten and that is something no one can take away from you and your family.
xx _________________

ClairaBell
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Puss, you know I think you are such a wonderful person, so strong and brave. Your poem is beautiful, and I am certain Steve is looking down on you, your boys and that little one inside you, and he is proud of you all. xxxxx _________________ After 3 and half years of ttc, tests being clear and unable to adopt, we have decided to become a patchwork family. Me, my hubby and stepchildren.
Its so sad to know I will never hear the word 'Mommy'.x
wriggler2008
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aww puss im so so sorry! you are such a strong brave woman.
massive hugs xx
EmmG
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What a beautiful poem! x Sorry for your loss! x _________________
    
Lanz81
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i'm so sorry for your loss and heartache, the poem is beautful.
My father died when my mother was 3 months pregnant with me the day before valentines day, they were due to marry on valentines day.
I just want to say to keep his memory alive for your daughter as my mother hasnt, I dont even have a photo of him and its something that upsets me still even though I am now 27.
xxx _________________

taramascara
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Joined: 14 Mar 2009
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OMG that was so touching tears rolling down my face and my lil boy looking at me worried
U r so strong we cn all take an example from you Im so sorry 4 ur loss _________________
   
sillymilly
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Joined: 08 Mar 2009
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im so so sorry for your loss, i cant imagine how terrible its been for you and your family but i just wanted to say what a wonderful strong woman and mother you must be and your children are so lucky to have a mommy like you. Love to you all, claire xxx
calcon
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puss im so sorry we were on the ttc forum at the same time last year,my heart goes out to you.you are truley a brave person.lots of lovexxkat
SEllis
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Joined: 06 Oct 2009
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Puss, I m so sorry for heard about your loss and I know its really difficult time for you. I know live without partner is really tough and life is so painful after a death of loved person. The poem is really nice and touches the heart. Thanks for sharing with us. You are always in my thoughts. My condolences for you. ((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))
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