[SEllis]

Oh, Its so bad and terrible loss for you. I m really sorry for your loss. I understand your feelings and what you feel this time. Lost of a little baby is so painful for mother. Its difficult to deal with this grief.
My friend also lost her child last year and she had also same situation like you. Please don't encourage yourself. I pray to God for you and relief your pain. You are always in my prayers and thoughts. (((((((((((HUGS))))))))))) for you.