[kittykat25]

I have suffered 5 miscarriages since 2007 & I have 3 children (which I'm so grateful to have) my eldest son is 9 my daughter is 8 . I then went & suffered 3 heartbreaking miscarriages 1 in 2007 at 4 weeks & 1 in 2009 at nearly 3 months. & another in 2009 at 5 1/2 weeks. Then I had my little boy who has just turned 2. I then suffered a miscarriage at 4 weeks in feb this year 4 days before my hen do. I then fell pregnant on my honeymoon in April this year but sadly miscarried again at nearly 7 weeks. I'm sorry if I'm rambling but just wanted you's to know the full picture but my prob is this. All of my miscarriages hurt like hell but the 1 I lost at near 3 months was the worst! We went every week for scans after bleeding & pain but my little baby kept fighting! We had planned everything & I was convince I was having a boy & we named him Harley but sadly we lost him. My whole family knew & it was a very difficult time . Now I found out a few months ago at the same time I suffered my 5th m/c after my wedding that my niece who is having a baby was calling hers harley! Now that was hard enough to deal with I even took myself off Facebook coz I couldn't handle hearing that name. I love her dearly & want her to be happy but tht was what I was calling my baby. I even told her sister about how it was making me feel. But couldnt tell her as i thought i was not being fair . Now as I recovered from my m/c I began to deal irh the fact she was calling him Harley & thought it would be ok but tomorrow the 8th sept is the day my Harley was due 3 years ago & guess what she's gone over & being induced & was going to be having him today but hospital to busy . So she's having him tomorrow! Now I feel like I'm falling apart. I think someone up there is trying to torture me! I tried to talk to my best friend but she just told me to deal with it! I think she was harsh. I don't know how to deal with it, I'm in pieces. & I don't know what to do . Please any advise would be great x
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Baby bean lost at 4 weeks on 2/11/2007
baby angel lost at 9 weeks 6 days on 6/2/09
baby bean at 5 weeks on 17/7/09
Baby bean at 4 weeks on 13/2/2012
Baby Paris at 6 weeks 5 days on 9/5/12

[dollychops2]

I have suffered 5 miscarriages since 2007 & I have 3 children (which I'm so grateful to have) my eldest son is 9 my daughter is 8 . I then went & suffered 3 heartbreaking miscarriages 1 in 2007 at 4 weeks & 1 in 2009 at nearly 3 months. & another in 2009 at 5 1/2 weeks. Then I had my little boy who has just turned 2. I then suffered a miscarriage at 4 weeks in feb this year 4 days before my hen do. I then fell pregnant on my honeymoon in April this year but sadly miscarried again at nearly 7 weeks. I'm sorry if I'm rambling but just wanted you's to know the full picture but my prob is this. All of my miscarriages hurt like hell but the 1 I lost at near 3 months was the worst! We went every week for scans after bleeding & pain but my little baby kept fighting! We had planned everything & I was convince I was having a boy & we named him Harley but sadly we lost him. My whole family knew & it was a very difficult time . Now I found out a few months ago at the same time I suffered my 5th m/c after my wedding that my niece who is having a baby was calling hers harley! Now that was hard enough to deal with I even took myself off Facebook coz I couldn't handle hearing that name. I love her dearly & want her to be happy but tht was what I was calling my baby. I even told her sister about how it was making me feel. But couldnt tell her as i thought i was not being fair . Now as I recovered from my m/c I began to deal irh the fact she was calling him Harley & thought it would be ok but tomorrow the 8th sept is the day my Harley was due 3 years ago & guess what she's gone over & being induced & was going to be having him today but hospital to busy . So she's having him tomorrow! Now I feel like I'm falling apart. I think someone up there is trying to torture me! I tried to talk to my best friend but she just told me to deal with it! I think she was harsh. I don't know how to deal with it, I'm in pieces. & I don't know what to do . Please any advise would be great x
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Baby bean lost at 4 weeks on 2/11/2007
baby angel lost at 9 weeks 6 days on 6/2/09
baby bean at 5 weeks on 17/7/09
Baby bean at 4 weeks on 13/2/2012
Baby Paris at 6 weeks 5 days on 9/5/12