[TTC1stbaby]

I am being such a negative Nancy abt the New Year. I thought I would be full of hope but it hit me that I will only have two cycles if I want a baby of my own in my arms for Christmas 2013. I am due for Af around January 11 and around Feb 2 is my CD22 bloods. If they are negative as the rest have been I am onto a RE sometime after Feb 11. Feb Af will be around the 24th. I am tired of 40-42 day cycles. I am getting ready to start a second round of femara when Af shows (the first one failed). I am just so tired of hearing that I have no trace of progesterone in my body. It doesn't seem fair that it takes some of us so long. My sister in law mentioned again that it took her only three weeks of being off birth control to get pregnant. She now has a beautiful 3 month old baby. My cousin and her were talking about having babies. My cousin popped out three babies without even ttc. She was anorexic (had been for years still is) and the dr said they thought she would never be able to have children. Another cousin was 350 lbs and diabetic when she got pregnant yet I hear that me being 206 lb will make it very difficult to get pregnant. I am so frustrated I want to scream. I feel like it is never going to happen. January is our 20th month ttc. I know when I hit that two year mark later this spring it is going to kill me. I am terrified that the RE will make me start up on clomid or femara a cycle or two before doing injections. I just don't know what is wrong with me. I just want to know that one day I will have a child. DH will be 34 this spring. If we are not pregnant by the time he is 36 maybe 35 we are going to start the adoption route. I have read that some agencies don't want to let you adopt past the age of 36 while some will let you until the time you are 40. I think I am going to start paying for a monthly massage to see if it will help me relax. Thanks for reading the rant of a Negative Nancy.

[Amymel86]

I am being such a negative Nancy abt the New Year. I thought I would be full of hope but it hit me that I will only have two cycles if I want a baby of my own in my arms for Christmas 2013. I am due for Af around January 11 and around Feb 2 is my CD22 bloods. If they are negative as the rest have been I am onto a RE sometime after Feb 11. Feb Af will be around the 24th. I am tired of 40-42 day cycles. I am getting ready to start a second round of femara when Af shows (the first one failed). I am just so tired of hearing that I have no trace of progesterone in my body. It doesn't seem fair that it takes some of us so long. My sister in law mentioned again that it took her only three weeks of being off birth control to get pregnant. She now has a beautiful 3 month old baby. My cousin and her were talking about having babies. My cousin popped out three babies without even ttc. She was anorexic (had been for years still is) and the dr said they thought she would never be able to have children. Another cousin was 350 lbs and diabetic when she got pregnant yet I hear that me being 206 lb will make it very difficult to get pregnant. I am so frustrated I want to scream. I feel like it is never going to happen. January is our 20th month ttc. I know when I hit that two year mark later this spring it is going to kill me. I am terrified that the RE will make me start up on clomid or femara a cycle or two before doing injections. I just don't know what is wrong with me. I just want to know that one day I will have a child. DH will be 34 this spring. If we are not pregnant by the time he is 36 maybe 35 we are going to start the adoption route. I have read that some agencies don't want to let you adopt past the age of 36 while some will let you until the time you are 40. I think I am going to start paying for a monthly massage to see if it will help me relax. Thanks for reading the rant of a Negative Nancy.

[TTC1stbaby]

I am being such a negative Nancy abt the New Year. I thought I would be full of hope but it hit me that I will only have two cycles if I want a baby of my own in my arms for Christmas 2013. I am due for Af around January 11 and around Feb 2 is my CD22 bloods. If they are negative as the rest have been I am onto a RE sometime after Feb 11. Feb Af will be around the 24th. I am tired of 40-42 day cycles. I am getting ready to start a second round of femara when Af shows (the first one failed). I am just so tired of hearing that I have no trace of progesterone in my body. It doesn't seem fair that it takes some of us so long. My sister in law mentioned again that it took her only three weeks of being off birth control to get pregnant. She now has a beautiful 3 month old baby. My cousin and her were talking about having babies. My cousin popped out three babies without even ttc. She was anorexic (had been for years still is) and the dr said they thought she would never be able to have children. Another cousin was 350 lbs and diabetic when she got pregnant yet I hear that me being 206 lb will make it very difficult to get pregnant. I am so frustrated I want to scream. I feel like it is never going to happen. January is our 20th month ttc. I know when I hit that two year mark later this spring it is going to kill me. I am terrified that the RE will make me start up on clomid or femara a cycle or two before doing injections. I just don't know what is wrong with me. I just want to know that one day I will have a child. DH will be 34 this spring. If we are not pregnant by the time he is 36 maybe 35 we are going to start the adoption route. I have read that some agencies don't want to let you adopt past the age of 36 while some will let you until the time you are 40. I think I am going to start paying for a monthly massage to see if it will help me relax. Thanks for reading the rant of a Negative Nancy.

[Amymel86]

I am being such a negative Nancy abt the New Year. I thought I would be full of hope but it hit me that I will only have two cycles if I want a baby of my own in my arms for Christmas 2013. I am due for Af around January 11 and around Feb 2 is my CD22 bloods. If they are negative as the rest have been I am onto a RE sometime after Feb 11. Feb Af will be around the 24th. I am tired of 40-42 day cycles. I am getting ready to start a second round of femara when Af shows (the first one failed). I am just so tired of hearing that I have no trace of progesterone in my body. It doesn't seem fair that it takes some of us so long. My sister in law mentioned again that it took her only three weeks of being off birth control to get pregnant. She now has a beautiful 3 month old baby. My cousin and her were talking about having babies. My cousin popped out three babies without even ttc. She was anorexic (had been for years still is) and the dr said they thought she would never be able to have children. Another cousin was 350 lbs and diabetic when she got pregnant yet I hear that me being 206 lb will make it very difficult to get pregnant. I am so frustrated I want to scream. I feel like it is never going to happen. January is our 20th month ttc. I know when I hit that two year mark later this spring it is going to kill me. I am terrified that the RE will make me start up on clomid or femara a cycle or two before doing injections. I just don't know what is wrong with me. I just want to know that one day I will have a child. DH will be 34 this spring. If we are not pregnant by the time he is 36 maybe 35 we are going to start the adoption route. I have read that some agencies don't want to let you adopt past the age of 36 while some will let you until the time you are 40. I think I am going to start paying for a monthly massage to see if it will help me relax. Thanks for reading the rant of a Negative Nancy.

[TTC1stbaby]

I am being such a negative Nancy abt the New Year. I thought I would be full of hope but it hit me that I will only have two cycles if I want a baby of my own in my arms for Christmas 2013. I am due for Af around January 11 and around Feb 2 is my CD22 bloods. If they are negative as the rest have been I am onto a RE sometime after Feb 11. Feb Af will be around the 24th. I am tired of 40-42 day cycles. I am getting ready to start a second round of femara when Af shows (the first one failed). I am just so tired of hearing that I have no trace of progesterone in my body. It doesn't seem fair that it takes some of us so long. My sister in law mentioned again that it took her only three weeks of being off birth control to get pregnant. She now has a beautiful 3 month old baby. My cousin and her were talking about having babies. My cousin popped out three babies without even ttc. She was anorexic (had been for years still is) and the dr said they thought she would never be able to have children. Another cousin was 350 lbs and diabetic when she got pregnant yet I hear that me being 206 lb will make it very difficult to get pregnant. I am so frustrated I want to scream. I feel like it is never going to happen. January is our 20th month ttc. I know when I hit that two year mark later this spring it is going to kill me. I am terrified that the RE will make me start up on clomid or femara a cycle or two before doing injections. I just don't know what is wrong with me. I just want to know that one day I will have a child. DH will be 34 this spring. If we are not pregnant by the time he is 36 maybe 35 we are going to start the adoption route. I have read that some agencies don't want to let you adopt past the age of 36 while some will let you until the time you are 40. I think I am going to start paying for a monthly massage to see if it will help me relax. Thanks for reading the rant of a Negative Nancy.

[poppytops]

I am being such a negative Nancy abt the New Year. I thought I would be full of hope but it hit me that I will only have two cycles if I want a baby of my own in my arms for Christmas 2013. I am due for Af around January 11 and around Feb 2 is my CD22 bloods. If they are negative as the rest have been I am onto a RE sometime after Feb 11. Feb Af will be around the 24th. I am tired of 40-42 day cycles. I am getting ready to start a second round of femara when Af shows (the first one failed). I am just so tired of hearing that I have no trace of progesterone in my body. It doesn't seem fair that it takes some of us so long. My sister in law mentioned again that it took her only three weeks of being off birth control to get pregnant. She now has a beautiful 3 month old baby. My cousin and her were talking about having babies. My cousin popped out three babies without even ttc. She was anorexic (had been for years still is) and the dr said they thought she would never be able to have children. Another cousin was 350 lbs and diabetic when she got pregnant yet I hear that me being 206 lb will make it very difficult to get pregnant. I am so frustrated I want to scream. I feel like it is never going to happen. January is our 20th month ttc. I know when I hit that two year mark later this spring it is going to kill me. I am terrified that the RE will make me start up on clomid or femara a cycle or two before doing injections. I just don't know what is wrong with me. I just want to know that one day I will have a child. DH will be 34 this spring. If we are not pregnant by the time he is 36 maybe 35 we are going to start the adoption route. I have read that some agencies don't want to let you adopt past the age of 36 while some will let you until the time you are 40. I think I am going to start paying for a monthly massage to see if it will help me relax. Thanks for reading the rant of a Negative Nancy.