Posted: Sun Jan 19, 2014 11:45 am
Post subject: cautiously returning..
hello again ladies.
i am very, very cautiously returning to askbaby.
i have just found out i am pregnant.
no idea on weeks - guessing about 4, as i haven't had a cycle since giving birth, so very very very early, still not really even sunk in.
parents know and a couple of friends only because i need the support!! nobody would know yet otherwise - i don't plan on telling my boss until 12 weeks, (i only return in march anyway), and trying to avoid telling ANYBODY else until i absolutely have to, i'm so worried.
anyone who was in birth club november 2013 will know my story already.
for those who don't - i gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, ella may on sunday 10th november, weighing 7lbs 6oz. lovely pregnancy, no worries except measuring small at 34wks which was resolved, lovely labour until was put on drip, 9 minutes of pushing and my girl was here. unfortunately, she passed away 8 hours later and of course it has been the most heartbreaking experience of my life, even more so as we have no answers and no clue as to what happened - other than she couldn't breathe on her own, as she had 'small lungs'.
anyway, we started ttc as soon as i was physically able, 4 weeks ago,and here i am!
so happy, but also worried.
my first baby goes to show you're never safe, not at 12
weeks not at 20 weeks not even in labour or after giving birth! so i fear i won't enjoy or cherish this pregnancy as awful as it sounds, until s/he's in my arms and i know they really are okay!
if anybody would be kind enough to send me lots and lots of good luck for second time around, i'd really appreciate it!!
Posted: Sat Jan 25, 2014 3:16 pm
Can I ask... what support have you had since your loss? I am shocked that you have had no answers. Answers would hopefully / surely give you some peace of mind for the next H&H 9 months until your baby is truly in your arms. It would mean that any issues that can be avoided will be (like steroid injections for example, or an early delivery).
Lots and lots and lots of luck for you... sending positive thoughts
Posted: Wed Jan 29, 2014 8:27 pm
Posted: Tue Feb 04, 2014 2:53 pm
ar Nds am so sorry am crying my eyes out reading this post xxxxxxxx I can't even begin to imagine what you went through so heartbreaking, but am sending you so much love and luck for this pregnancy by god your deserve it! sending you all the love and luck in the world, lots of love Jo xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx