Posted: Wed May 07, 2008 10:20 pm
Post subject: crying til i can't breath
Hey everyone, i've had an awfull evening today, not totally baby related but i could really use some cheering up since i was supposed to have my b'day party today and nobody turned up... Now i feel like a pathetic stupid useless person who can't even concieve either!! and i keep thinking to myself maybe the reason i want a baby sooo much is because it will be someone who will unconditionally love me, to fill the gap.
I duno, i'm sorry to be so depressing but i've been crying til i can't breath out of my nose:( and the only thing that i could think that would make me feel better is by coming on here and talking to you guys who in such a short space of time have evidently become much better friend than my rl ones.
Hope everyone else feels better than me!
Posted: Wed May 07, 2008 10:23 pm
oh thats terrible i hope you are ok? Are you sure everyone knew etc, could it be crossed wires? You know what people are like especially going out in the middle of the week, not that, thst is an excuse but im just trying to think of reasons why people wouldn't turn up. Aah that is so horrible for you.
Posted: Wed May 07, 2008 10:26 pm
well i set up a facebook group about it and i know everyone goes on it like a million times a day so they couldn't of missed it. and i understand that people may of have something random happen that they couldnt stop but only 1 person bothered to tell me they couldnt come. just feel so [*CENSORED*] now, and obviously since im on my period my emotions are sky high 'coz of hormones in general and coz no period = no baby:(
Posted: Wed May 07, 2008 10:45 pm
oh we would have def came ah that is awful u should check though lie helz said in case they didnt knw
or u have you have your own little private party on here ready
happy birthday to u happy birthday to u just pretend we r drunk
Posted: Wed May 07, 2008 10:58 pm
hahaha see your all gettin in the swing of it now i will drunk tomorro after gettin the kids there trampolin
i think i am actually buyin it for myself startin thinkin me and hubby could have fun on there
ok think i better go sleep soon gettin too naughty