Posted: Thu Jun 19, 2008 5:57 pm
Post subject: Well ladies I have now officially missed my 2nd AF
Just thought i would led you all know, my new blds have been booked in for monday at 12.30 I am just so down and low at the moment......my emotions are driving me insane, ive cried 3 times at work this week.....it can be happy or sad, then im angry and then really happy.
I just dont know what too bloody think, I have just read the thread on blds and it does give me hope, and Miss Scotland, ja, sarah, fishy, LAURA G, fairytale and Millrose thank you for everything.
My belly has started to round (last time I showed from 6 weeks) I just trying not to think about it all...............as you can tell I still wearing pads at night and carrying tampons to trips to the loo..............so embaressed now
Posted: Thu Jun 19, 2008 6:51 pm
awwww thank you pup..... i dont know if you have been keeping track and reading my updates and posts......i just feel as if I have lost it.
I actually talk/email fishy alot, everyone else thinks i am pg and yet evrytime I test (once a week) im still getting bfn.....yet no af!!!!
I hope you are well.....i have sort of stayed off for around a week as I am concerned that peeps will think im round the bend!!! I mean most peeps know by now dont they???? I have really lots of things that are so pg but a test says I am not and my first lot of blds were bloody lost.
I would hate for peeps to think, she is going round the bend.
Posted: Thu Jun 19, 2008 7:17 pm
I am currently at 8 and a half weeks late!!!!
But doc thinks i could of conceived late if i am and would only be 5 and half in I am, if not then why am i being sick etc and crying so much bloody crying!!!
NAH YOUR NOT DIZZY AND YOU ARE LOVELY PUP
Posted: Thu Jun 19, 2008 7:40 pm
yep, and evryone around me says that iam. My mum and me are very close and she knows i am late and has now told my brother and my aunt that I probably am....it hasnt even been found out if i am yet!!
but im still waiting for af to arrive!!!!
Im trying not to get hopes up and so keep waiting for it to start!!!
Last time when i was pregnant, i was suppose to be 9 weeks and was actually 4 weeks....so dont really know what to think, however for the last 2 yrs have had a 32 day cycle except when i was pg and now!!!
I do apologise, i am normally really bouncey and happy but seem to be all over the place at the mo.
Posted: Thu Jun 19, 2008 8:12 pm
Awwwwwwwwwwww hun fishy,
I really didnt mean to get you upset and cry and your words are lovely on the coping with lost section, my hubby and I wrote similar words in a card for caitlynne and like you tonight i had to look at them and my scans and i now look like rudolph.
And darling I know you will always be there for me as i will for you and you are such a great text email mate......feel as if i have met you even though we havent.
Pup and all i should know by this time next week if they dont bloody loose them again!!!!
Posted: Thu Jun 19, 2008 11:54 pm
Just seen your thread and popped on quickly to see you hun before i go to bed, im completely shattered and got some bd to do first (still doing it just incase) arghhhhh this bd is all too much
Sorry, back to what i was saying...
Dont ever think any1`s going to think your crazy cos you certainly aint, the waiting is and must be taking everything out of you and draining you big time, that's natural hun.
You are stronger than you give yourself credit for, please dont feel on your own or you have to stay away because we are all here for you anytime and will never judge you as being mad nor losing the plot,things are just all over the place for you right now and with having such a long wait, its enough to emotionally cripple anyone.
You have done exceptionally well to hold everything all in for such a very very long time, its bound to take its toll and come flying out either in anger or crying etc. Dont beat yourself up, its better out than in.
Could you not maybe take some time off work,even if for a few days and give yourself a well deserved break and some time to yourself? Think of number 1...You
I hope all goes well on Monday and you get your bfp results back real soon. I`ll have everything crossed and thinking of you.
Take good care luv
P.s I know i said to take a look at the blds thread in my post yesterday, but i wouldn't bother with that. Something in that thread just doesn't add up rightly but i apologise if i may be wrong. (dont know if any1 else can see and notice what i mean but sorry its just my opinion on reading back through it and then today!!! Hmm just quite strange indeed)