Posted: Fri Jun 26, 2009 2:45 am
Post subject: Lost my Baby Girl, I'm so sad & heart broken..........
I lost my baby on Tues and I just can't stop crying and to make things even worse my milk has come in but there's no baby to feed.
We had a car crash at 8 wks and I've just bled constantly since 11 wks, passed clots the size of my fist and been in & out of hospital, but I came out 3 weeks ago & been feeling much better for past 2 wks, then all of a sudden I woke up on Tues in such pain I couldn't move. I had my baby at home that morning and She was kicking all the way until the moment I felt a rip - when the placenta come away. I just can't believe it happened.
We called her Isabella Grace and had her blessed today & had her foot & hand prints taken. Now I'm waiting for her funeral, when I should be looking forward to the moment I can hold her in my arms and instead of buying her a blanket to be buried in I should be buying her beautiful pink things to bring her home in. My dh is absolutely gr8 and we feel so much closer but I really don't know how I'm gonna get thru this. I can't sleep or eat - it feels so wrong to be enjoying food without my baby. I feel so guilty that I couldn't hold on to her for just a few more wks. I just feel empty and can't sleep - this is the time of night Isabella would wake me up to say hello with a kick & big fidget. I miss her so much and want her so badly. My heart is well & truly broken.
If anyone has any advice, I could really do with some I'll try & get back on here soon. xx
After a horrible few years, life is good.
Posted: Fri Jun 26, 2009 5:44 am
My darling I am so sorry. I had a tear in my eye reading that. I can't imagine how you are feeling but I wanted to send you my love. Time is a healer and i pray that with time your loss becomes easier. My OH lost his best friend (aged 25) a couple of months ago, it is the worst feeling in the world to lose someone you love. Take care sweety xxxxxxxx
Posted: Fri Jun 26, 2009 6:31 am
I am so so sorry for your loss hun.
I don't think there is anything anyone can say hun, You have just experienced a massive loss.
I would say it normal to have all the feelings you do but please don't make yourself ill by not eating etc.
A friend of mine had her baby at 23 weeks a couple of years ago, Sadly Rhianna passed away after a few days. Please take any help you are offered in regards to counciling hun, My friend didn't in the beginning and really regrets this now. Although she is getting the help she needed now, Its nearly 2 years too late.
Again i'm so sorry you and you OH have had to go through this.
My beautiful children are my life! Tommy 10 and Charlie 4 and Lily 1, Mummy loves you! xxx
Posted: Fri Jun 26, 2009 6:54 am
I honestly do not know what to say as I can not imagine the emptiness you feel right now.
Please know we are all feeling for you so much
It looks like like you have another kiddy, so however hard this may seem right now, they will help you get through it.
So sorry for your loss.
Take Care x