Posted: Mon Dec 03, 2007 1:23 am
Post subject: postnatal depresson
ihate to admit it so openly, but i have recently been diagnosed with severe postnatal depression. i had it with my first child too. this time its much worse and at 3 days after my son was born, i had a psychotic breakdown. that night, i had a panic attack and apparently i took my son and a bag of things and fled. i can`t remember much about that night but i feel upset because the pain is still so raw. i have psychiatrists visit every day bu i cn`t seem to shake off the black cloud around me. i try to keep busy, treat myself and my kids but i can feel the fear and panic creeping on me again and worried about a relapse. i wud love to hear from any other people who had PND or how they might of got through it, so i can find ways to help myself somehow.
Posted: Tue Dec 04, 2007 7:14 pm
hun please dont be asshamed.
i had PND and it wasnt detected until my son was 8 months old.
i went to the post office to cash my income support and was toild they couldnt do two weeks money - i was going on holiday and needed it for spends.
i completely flipped out and apparently was a wreck but i dont remember it clearly at all.
i think your fab for wanting to talk about it and accepting help. well done you.
Posted: Sat Mar 01, 2008 10:30 pm
Post subject: postnatal depression
I too had severe postnatal depression and was admitted the psychiatric unit for several months and felt exactly the same way you are feeling, but i can promise you it does get better. I found medication ( i know some people don't), being open and completely honest about how i was feeling, no matter how bad or horrendous these thoughts or feelings were, and making time for myself, away from my child helped me through. now after 3 years, i am discharged completely from mental health services, and happy.just hang in there, its a hard recovery, but its worth it in the end
Posted: Sat Apr 19, 2008 12:40 am
Post subject: 5 months on...
thanks for your support. i`m still under mental healthcare and on medication. on wednesday, i broke down again. it was horrible- i could feel this black fog clouding my mind and i had to lock myself in my flat because i felt that if i went outside, i would go crazy. it was certainly what i needed. it took until today for me to find the courage to go outside again. i`m ashamed to admit that i took an overdose a few weeks ago. the same had happened, only i couldn`t control it. when i had jake, i was offered the chance to go to a specialist mother and baby unit for women with postnatal depression but i turned it down because i was told i had to put jake in a nursery at night. now i wish i took up the offer because i feel now that i need it.
Posted: Mon May 05, 2008 2:24 am
Post subject: Depression
I think this has to be the hardest part of having a baby. I too have PND but havnt told anybody. We had lots of little health issues with my son when he was born and still do to some extent and he is now 6mnth old. Our familys treated me as though I was over- reacting when I asked for help and now I just dont ask. It is a scary thing to go through a. I think my husband has a form of PND too so that adds to it. Well done for getting the help you need and never be ashamed of it. I wish you all the best.